What Will the Future Bring

Day after day I wonder where this whole figure and fitness thing will take me. Sometimes I get a little down and think I will stick with some general figure competitions and try and continue working out. Other days I remember my passion for dancing and joy and excitement every time I watch it (not a trained dancer by any means but I love to dance in general). I used to cheer in highschool and I was decent but as the years went by I realized how much I miss doing routines and so forth. My passion was initially for fitness competitions and would record them on a regular basis when I was in the military and just sit there mesmerized. I've always had a vision of me doing that. I decided once I had gained a ton of weight and started to lose how much I really enjoyed the figure portion of competitions. Looking at the symmetry and tone of these beautiful women. I don't necessarily want to be as defined as some women but look at them with amazement and envy just the same. I have an idea of what I want my body to be and as much as I want the body of others I see, I will eventually realize what I want for myself and continue on from there. The other day I was looking at the Cathy Savage Fitness website and basically found exactly what I was looking for. For me, my look almost seems to be between a figure competitor and a bikini competitor. I do want the nice muscle definition with the nice quads and round glutes but have found that as you begin to look at the pro and some national level girls, they are a little bit too muscular for me. They look amazing just the same though but it is just not what I am trying to achieve. The women in some of the pictures though were exactly what I aspired to eventually gain as a body and it totally had me excited. I looked through many of the pics and realized how much I really would like to do fitness in the future and how much I want to make this figure and fitness world a mainstay in my life. No to do the things that go with it. In order to live out your dream, you must conquer the path that leads to it. My path has already started and my first competition date is still tentatively set for October 18, at the OCB Cape Cod Naturals as long as I get the time off from work and my body cooperates with me, lol.

So yes I eventually see fitness competitions in my life but for the next year I will be focusing on figure competitions and gaining the body that I need for that. As I increase in strength, strength moves, stamina, endurance, and flexibility, as well as work on stage presence and dancing ability/technique I will look at a date for a fitness competition. I am leaning towards the fall of 2009 though. That will give me a year of figure competitions under my belt and help me to feel more comfortable onstage as well as get the input of other fitness competitors. That date may totally change but is just what I am looking at right now.

Death Circuits

Okay, today was death circuits # 1. Oh my, my body hurts soooo right now. It's funny though, my abs hurt the most and have been for the last couple of days. I did abs on Sunday morning with this new DVD that I got (Perfect Abs). I really like it and think that with the DVD, my Turbo Jam & other vids, as well as workouts. My abs will be competition ready by the time it rolls around. Granted thats with getting this darn fat off and allowing whatever I have to show, lol. I wonder if I do have anything right now under there. My abs, hams, and glutes are the biggest areas that I'm concerned with right now as far as being ready for comp time. I think the others will progress nicely with the workouts my trainer gives me. Well my tri's I'm a little conerned with too. It's hard to see if there's much muscle there because I still have the chicken wing swing action going on there, lol. I can definitely see the definition in the gym in my bi's and shoulders though. I just have to give it time to develop more and come out. Okay this was supposed to be about my death circuits today and now I'm all over the place, lol. The death circuit that Sully has for me is basically intense ten minute cardio followed by circuits and then more cardio. I love them. I am not much of a person that likes to work heavy weights but I know that it is needed to hit certain muscle fibers though. I feel like I am killing it when I do the death circuits. I felt a little queezy at one point though and thought I was going to hurl right before doing my squats, that would be totally embarressing. I made it through though. Still feeling very promising about the whole thing and hoping to see some needed changes develop over the next 18+ weeks. One thing that keeps me positive week to week is also going out on my weekend off, hoping to be able to fit into more clothes and so forth. Plus my friends notice when I lose weight, hehehe. The other night we went out and they were like damn your starting to look slim. Mind you this was after my graduation and eating fried Tofu, shrimp stir-fry, and ice cream, lol. I was so far from feeling slim, it wasn't even funny. Still trying to recoup from that night and feel less heavy, lol. So hoping to see some big changes for next time I go out, so I can wear a cute outfit. Gotta make nights out good because soon I will have to be the DD, but I'm okay with that. All part of the game. As long as I get to get my dance on, I'm a happy girl.

Feeling Good :)

So had my upper body (heavy) workout today. Everything is feeling good. I also did some sprints and glute work this am after getting out of work. I feel really pumped up at this point and feeling very positive. Now if the bodyfat will work with me and take a hike, hehehe. Got my groceries for the week, this is my last week on this diet and then start a new diet and training next week. I don't see too many changes happening with the diet though. Starting to find better options with my chicken and seasoning and so forth which is helping considerably. Also found a seasoning for my veggies that I really like too and helps get rid of that blandness that comes along with eating brocolli after brocolli and grean beans after green beans. I do miss the cheese on my broccolli, (sigh), but it comes with the territory. As long as I'm learning new things to add and flavor that I can work with is, I'm a happy girl. Weight is still feeling up, but after the goodies and meals I had after graduation, I am not surprised. I am hoping that by the end of this week, I won't feel so heavy anymore. Other than that, still having that positive feeling that I haven't had in a while and really feeling like I can bring some incredible changes over the next 18-19wks as long as I stay dedicated to my diet and workouts. We'll see what my body transformation has in store for me. I posted the pic of my dream body right now, that may change but it is the one of Alicia Marie on the bike. Sometimes she looks a little too skinny to me but in this pic I think she looks incredible. Especially for offseason I would love to stay looking like that with maybe a little weight added. She still looks tone but no big definition going on. Exactly where I would like to be offseason and then some added definition onstage :). Body transformation, here I come :).