Yup, still here :)

Well, yes I am still here and ticking away. Maybe not as well as I should be but I’m ticking. I’ve continued to go through ups and downs but that’s what’s up with me anyhoo. Went through a phase about questioning whether I should compete this year and looking at waiting until next year and then having the fire burn again because I don’t want to wait that long to step on stage. I have been eyeing several programs through Cathy Savage Fitness and decided to enter her summer challenge which has some crazy workouts on it which I think are going to work wonders for me . The meal plan brought me back to my basics which has helped a lot because I think I tried to go gung ho to quick and was not ready for it quite yet. I will talk over a comp later this year with her and see what she says. If I decide to still do the comp I was looking at, I will be 12wks out, but I am also eyeing a comp on Nov 1, Monster Mash, which just added a bikini category also. I decided that I am looking for a figure between bikini and figure at this point and I guess even later down the road. I love muscle on other women (figure wise) but I don’t necessarily want it for myself and love the look of bikini competitors who have a little more muscle and definitiion to them. So yeah, I want to try and cross btwn the two. So that is the one I really want to hit and to cross btwn bikini and figure. I will be 15wks out as of this coming wknd, so hopefully she okays everything. I have been having a really hard time with nights, sleep, and putting everything together lately. I thought once I was done with school everything would be much better but it hasn’t. I just went into the pay bills mode and added more hours into my work schedule. Sucks when your doing nightshift. I take my boards next wk (please lord let me pass )).. and then start my new grad program on the 28th of July. I will be on days for about a couple of months which will help tremendously with my meal planning and getting my workouts in right after work. No stopping just heading straight to the gym … So that is when I am going to make the biggest changes, when I hit days. When I was in the military that’s how I did my gym time and I had no issues. I will be a few wks out by the time I switch back to nights, so I just need to stay dedicated at that point. Well just catching up on here … Will post again soon, especially after I finish taking my boards …