NO MORE EXCUSES!!!

My goodness, I don't know how many times I have said it. But I truly mean it this time, no more excuses. I am 19wks out and am freaking out. The time is now and I need to stop putting things off. School is officially done with, graduation was yesterday and I have no more doubles at work planned. I am finally feeling at ease in that department and so I need to get my act together. Tomorrow I will be on full force in the diet and the workout department. I got a my DVD's in that I ordered so I am pretty much all set. I am thinking about ordering a couple of posing DVD's once I go through some of them to get some ideas, but we'll see. May also look into getting another suit if I find a good deal. I still have time because the comp isn't until October, but someone mentioned having a back up suit and heels. The heels I will order closer to comp to make sure of sizing and already have a pair which will be my back-up.



At one point was starting to think that I would change my comp date and just waiting until next spring and was very unsure of myself. How was I ever going to gain enough muscle and definition as well as lose all that bodyfat. Other girls are usually have been working out over a year out and planning for comp this far out. I am literally trying to lose all this fat I gained as well as train for a competition. It is a little bit overwhelming. Refocus is what I have to do. I may not have that dream body that I want, but if I get get my bodyfat down where I need to be and still focus on adding muscle, I will be okay. I may not have that defintion that I am looking for but I will be okay stepping on that stage as long as I am lean enough. So I need to stay focused and watch for those changes week to week which I KNOW I will be seeing. I looked at some of the pics from the Comp I will be competing in this year from the year before and a lot of them do not have a ton of definition and that helped also to put me at ease. I definitely will be working on my hams and glutes as well as a lot of posing so that I feel more at ease on stage. Those were the biggest areas that I saw issues with from the pics. The posing was a complete mess. My goodness, I could not believe it. A lot of the girls looked extremely unformtable and still. Need to really practice the posing and holding it for a period of time, that's probably a big part of it. And the backsides on some of the competitors, man do I need to work on them donkey kicks and so forth. That's really going to help me if I can come in with a good looking booty and hams. Donkey kicks here we come. So come on Melinda. NO MORE EXCUSES......

Thoughts

My goodness, I can't believe it has been so long since I have blogged. Well I have officially, lol, again changed my date of my first competition. It will go back to my original date of October 11, OCB Cape Cod Natural. I am still undecided about the NPC Massachusetts State show because it is only 1 wk later and I am not sure how it is going to be trying to request time off from work. I will be starting as a new grad and don't start until July 28, that means that by the time I'm working full-time on the floor, it will be close to that timeframe. I can probably try and get people to work for me, but I'll play out all the possibilities as I come closer to comp time. I decided on the OCB Maine event because of the above work reasons and also because of the travel situation. It's not really far, but I would definitely have to stay overnight at a hotel and getting people to go would be difficult. I want my friends and family to be able to see me at my first competition and the Cape Cod Natural is only 1/2 an hour away from where I live. The NPC show is a National Qualifier so I am looking at really wanting to do it, but don't know how it is going to work doing competitions back to back (two wknds in a row).

So up to this point been awful with dieting and training. I'll do really well one wk, then all over the place the next. I officially have no excuses :). School is finished, finals are out of the way (still waiting on grades :(...), and graduation is on Friday. So I need to get my a** in gear. I literally have 20wks to get this going and am a little worried about getting where I need to be. I know I can do a later comp if need be, but I really want to do the one I am scheduled for. So I need to make sure to have my act together from now on. I am working a couple of double shifts this week but have decided not to do that anymore. I think I will be okay until I start the new grad program with just picking up time (probably 11-7s or 3-11s). The double's get me a little stressed out because I'm not used to doing them anymore (used to do double's all the time) and start to worry about sleep, getting workouts in, etc. Plus I want to try and start fitting in some double workouts. I had my best losses the week I was able to do the double cardios and look forward to losing some of this fat, bikini season is just around the corner, literally and I am far from ready.

Speaking of beach, one girl mentioned for her NCLEX, she literally sat at the beach and studied. That is so going to be me, lol. I live right down the street from one (not the best one by far, but hey it's got sand and water, lol) and am taking advantage of it. Little one is officially (after weeks of procrastination) coming home when my father comes for graduation, so many dog walks will be in effect, lol. Hope the kitties are ready because they have been loving their relaxed, not being chased time, lol.

So here I go. Cardio done for today. Today is actually supposed to be my off day but wanted to start my twenty weeks out good and will probably do my long run (working up to that, lol) on Sundays (11 wks till falmouth road race, so gotta get running into gear). Also did my Turbo Jam, which I absolutely love. I love my cardio vids and will probably add those in because I love to dance and all that good stuff and some of them work my abs like nothing else. Food is set for the day and ready to go, all packed up, now to remember to bring it and not forget it at home, lol. Time for a nap and off for my double. A quote I got off from someone from bb.com

"Winning isn't everything, but wanting to win is"