April??? Can I do April

So I keep going all over the place with when to do my first competition and needing to do so much. I still keep going back to April though. There is an OCB competition called Spirit of America that I really want to compete in to give me my first step. I no longer care about placings (I lie, I want to place well, but want to be prepared and look well more than anything and just get this competition thing started already) so I just want to go for it and if I am not even close to ready then I will just hold off until the June/July timeframe which is already what I am looking at. That gives me exactly 20wks to put something into works. I have decided to continue to look for my own info and plan my own training & diet. I hate waiting for things and am just going to continuously figure out what works for me. So that may bat against me with getting things done by April, but that's what is going to work for me.

Things, I have to lose about 2lbs per week to be contest ready by my goal time. I am no longer going to stress over this. I did last year and it did nothing but make things worse...At least this will be the beginning of the season and NOT the end, lol. So if I don't step on that stage, I will continue preparing until I hit it. I will hit that stage this year :) ...

So I have 20wks to get this started, need to figure out my first game plan...NOW ALREADY, LOL.

Thoughts, I was initially thinking of doing first cardio in am when I get out of work when I need to do double cardio...Thinking of switching to nighttime instead before I go to work. Boyfriend will wake my butt up for sure. Thank goodness for treadmill at home :) ...

Boyfriend needs to get me going already. He's a chef and gets laid off during the downseason because his restaurant closes, so HE HAS NO EXCUSES to be on my tail making sure I behave myself :) ...

Okay feeling much better and liking the idea of this goal :) ... Time to pull out my competition suit and smile again >.... Now to get the body moving and the diet going good and strong. Thanksgiving totally scrued me up. Here I go again. EXCUSES, EXCUSES, EXCUSES. need to have strong will :) ...